uhm.. let's start with the word most people avoid: LOVE.

As I've warned you before, this story didn't have the happy ending. And Yes, LOVE meets unhappy ending equals.. broken heart.

That might sound so lame. Not to forget so Emo. But that's how i feel. Thank God it's not yet a suicidal mission. But just lame depressed bat, wandering aimlessly seeking for something that is crush and lost.

You know, Love isn't about SEX. That's lust. what physical true love meant are just cuddling, snuggle, hugs, kiss, and looking to each other with those devoted eyes that envy everyone around. You don't need to show PDA when you can show them that much of devotion and love. Well, that's enough.

Then, this gets so complicated. Because once you love someone, and get that love in return.. most of the time.. you didn't realize how much you have that someone until their gone. So, lesson learned?

Not yet? here's some resume to make it bit easier:

Do not love them too much (especially to you girls, this will makes him go away or cheating on you!) And dudes, if you hesitate, or in doubt.. do tell your woman. They will getting mad (most of them cause woman also have those high ego like you do.) at first.. but they will understand. And if she really loves you, she will (or wont) do stuffs you dislike/like.

Dudes, really.. if you say you love her, trust her. treat her the way she want to be treated. And ladies, trust him. do not over think what he said. because that's what he said.

The end.

soo.. i'll go write something sad, because i'm so down now.. :'(

But before that, let me entertain you with this fox i made yesterday.

Hi, again.

Now I want to tell a bit about ads industry. For some, it might be pain in the ass.. with the politics, drama and.. highly demanding clients. And yes, it should stress you up so much. Mashing your head and you just want to bang it hard to the wall. But, all and all.. all you need is just someone who acts like a trigger to you. Turning the dead bulb on your head that quick is all you need. And that's why you need a leader.. a role model.

All fields, every person all need role model. Whether you realized, wanted, wished.. or not. Maybe because all of us are looking up to someone else when we were just a child. To our mother, sister, father, brother, any family member that close to you.. even your imaginary friends!

But again, when you have the passion to do anything. No matter what, it will be such a pleasant feelings in your head and mind. *mind me head and mind are different things*

One of my friends once told me, 'K, why it's like you never work? But you've done it all. Why it like you never take anything so serious, you never get really stressed out?' and i just smiled.

Those questions leads me to many years ago. When I saw my mother came home with eyes popping, wrinkles, and exhausted face. Hell, she looks really ugly. Thou she's actually super cute and nice. But when it comes to work, when she got home or had a fight or any else.. she looks different. And who wants that?

So what ever you did, do..or done. try to enjoy it. How? look for a trigger. because without it, no one can lit your dead bulb. You can't have anything. Ideas, motivations.. or... even you could lost your passion.

My notes: takes everything as your playground. Tell your boss; 'please, let me do mistakes so I could learn from it. And be much better than before' and do have fun. if you work hard, play hard too! And it doesn't even mean that you have to waste your money having vacation abroad, or splurge into a non sense indulgence that you regrets after.. as simple as go to next town, stay in a motel or family's residence, turn off you blackberry, mail, etc. eat something decent for your tummy and tongue, read books, call a long-way-no see- friends, have a deep laugh conversations, and sleep nicely. *that goes well for me.

so go do what you love, then you'll love what you do! without pressures.. well, a bit might not goes wrong, and be inspired every single time you blink, you breath, you hear.

:D

hey.. i've found this on my old sent item. I guess I works this out when I'm on a chaos working on my final project. And it's still raw and rough.. i'm not a very good vector artist thou. :)
but I appreciate my own works so much. It shows my progress, so I know which one I'm good at, and which one I should throw away and not showing this to anyone.

The story is about the bretel..I love to draw him so much. So when I drew myself.. it'll look more goofy than when I have to draw him (or anyone else). So I guess I have to make myself an inspiration to me. Then.. hope will inspired people around me.

enough of the yada's.

enjoy.

You know.. it's so sucks if you just wrote (or typed) anything but it's all dissappear. Argh.

Anyone who read my posts.. Pleaseee.. pleasee.. wish me luck. I need all the luck because I want to move out so bad.

Well, here's the thing. You know something you want so bad once you've seen it, right?

That happens to me. Just like I want those vamplets dolls. I want to work with this cool Group Head lady and hillariously funny Creative Director. But as usual.. I might be not that good. I just finger-crossing my hands all the time and pray. This reactions happens because my parents are so thrilled that I've got interviewed there. And from the cool me (yeah, cool I am) to the nervous me. Aaand.. few of my friends might know it well.. every single time I'm this nervous, I felt a strange jolt in my tummy that makes me throw up. (in spite of my bad condition tummy.. yes, I've got this maag thingy). I hate to wait.. the longer I wait the more frantic I became.

But hey, If I'm not good enough to join that team there, maybe I belong to somewhere else. Somewhere I didn't know and somewhere I never heard of. (aand.. what makes it better Kay?? Duh.)

Anyhoo.. Pleaseeee.. wish me luck. Love love love love

Ps: Here's the Vamplets that I adore..

Little fox, Annora.

i'm terribly sorry i couldn't fulfill it all.. boo-hooo.. It's a massive homework for me to do those resize-ing pictures and stuffs..

well, here's the issues.. for those 4 months ish, i am terribly confused of how i can take a job in a creative fields when i have to choose sides. it's quite easy when you know what you want is in a particular sides. as an art director, the hands and tools who.. well.. do all those artsy pantsy stuffs including directing and supervising if it's necessary, and as a copywriter.. the brain who made issues, a radio ads that shouldn't makes people die off on their feet while they were eating the fries that you wish to sell, or making a script that could empty your stacks of kleenex stocks for a season. and the very mighty creative director.. who just sit and tells them the big no or give a huge yes with a grin. but there also.. maybe.. half of the creative director in the world who will be delighted to help and give you solutions.

both were a fun things to do. and both has its own challenges to fulfill. and the things that sucks the hell out of me are that both of them are the things that i want to do! But well, you couldn't just hop in an advertising office and claim yourself as a creative director without struggling for at least a decade and losing your time socializing with your old friends..

well, sometimes entering those creative world actually aren't as easy as you flip your pancakes or rolling your sushi and ta-dah to your audiences. although its a job that most people underestimate so much, it's a job that requires high skills to maintain your stress limits and your times due to your deadlines.

not to mentions the clients who has a very high demanding but sometimes low knowledge of things that you knows best and ordering you what to do as if they were the 100 years old guru on that.

that could be such a pain on your eye lids.. so hard to get rid of it because you were defenseless against it. (sorry future clients, past clients, never to be clients)

anywaayy.. the hardest part is to choose. especially when you didn't have any specification on either side but your love for both sides.

and that's me.

c'est la vie my friends..

and here i am.. try to find a grip and yet still hoping for a vampire of my life to come and get me.