i'm terribly sorry i couldn't fulfill it all.. boo-hooo.. It's a massive homework for me to do those resize-ing pictures and stuffs..

well, here's the issues.. for those 4 months ish, i am terribly confused of how i can take a job in a creative fields when i have to choose sides. it's quite easy when you know what you want is in a particular sides. as an art director, the hands and tools who.. well.. do all those artsy pantsy stuffs including directing and supervising if it's necessary, and as a copywriter.. the brain who made issues, a radio ads that shouldn't makes people die off on their feet while they were eating the fries that you wish to sell, or making a script that could empty your stacks of kleenex stocks for a season. and the very mighty creative director.. who just sit and tells them the big no or give a huge yes with a grin. but there also.. maybe.. half of the creative director in the world who will be delighted to help and give you solutions.

both were a fun things to do. and both has its own challenges to fulfill. and the things that sucks the hell out of me are that both of them are the things that i want to do! But well, you couldn't just hop in an advertising office and claim yourself as a creative director without struggling for at least a decade and losing your time socializing with your old friends..

well, sometimes entering those creative world actually aren't as easy as you flip your pancakes or rolling your sushi and ta-dah to your audiences. although its a job that most people underestimate so much, it's a job that requires high skills to maintain your stress limits and your times due to your deadlines.

not to mentions the clients who has a very high demanding but sometimes low knowledge of things that you knows best and ordering you what to do as if they were the 100 years old guru on that.

that could be such a pain on your eye lids.. so hard to get rid of it because you were defenseless against it. (sorry future clients, past clients, never to be clients)

anywaayy.. the hardest part is to choose. especially when you didn't have any specification on either side but your love for both sides.

and that's me.

c'est la vie my friends..

and here i am.. try to find a grip and yet still hoping for a vampire of my life to come and get me.

okay.. from now on.. i promise i swear.. i'll update.. to appreciate who ever that already visited my lame blog and to show my appreciation and share my loves.. :)

few photos

gosh! i got stalker! it's freak! like super freak!! help!!

hey! how's life?? great i hope..well.. since i'm too lazy to scan my pic.. this time.. i try to publish it by photos! sorry it take too long! later then!

hey, how's everything? i've been pretty busy this time..
but these are some stuffs i've made recently..
i hope you like it! some are from my sketchbook.. :)

seorang anak dengan topeng ultraman yang sudah cukup usang termangu sendiri di tepi ilalang. namun sekumpulan anak-anak tetap asyik bermain tanpa menghiraukan anak bertopeng itu. Walaupun memakai topeng, bahasa tubuhnya menunjukkan bahwa da hanya ingin bergabung. Setiap ada anak yang berlari mendekat ke arahnya, tubuhnya yang tidak kalah usang dengan topeng ultraman yang dipakainya menunjukkan sedikit semangat. Namun, tubuh usang itu kembali layu setelah ternyata tidak ada satupun yang mengajaknya bermain bersama.

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suatu hari, setelah berbulan-bulan lamanya, akhirnya ada seorang bocah yang datang menghampirinya sembari bertanya, apa yang selama ini kamu inginkan?

anak itu seolah lelah mengharap siapapun akan datang sesuai harapannya dengan lemah berkata : 'teman'